I spent my Wednesday afternoon screwing up every single experiment I had to run (seriously, how stupid is it to put all of your PCR primers into ONE reaction?!) plus I began to get sick with a cold. I was supposed to study for my genetics test, but instead fell asleep at 9:30pm thanks to the cold virus that was now invading my entire body.
This morning, feeling pretty crappy, I had to go to the lab to try and recover from my mistakes the day before. I then had to attend lab meeting, which only lasts about 2 hours. Two hours gone and I had yet to really study for my test...
I sat in the health sciences library the entire afternoon, sneezing and sniffling, popping Zicam every three hours, trying to absorb everything I had learned about fruit fly genetics. After talking with some classmates I began to feel a bit more comfortable about the test, even though my study time had been anything but ideal.
Finally, the time to take the test came. I popped another disgusting Zicam tablet in my mouth and went in.
It. Was. The. Worst. Test. EVER.
Did I fail it? Most likely.
I could've gone home but decided instead to catch the last half of my Institute class. I'm not so sure what the lesson was about today, but I did catch the part about the Plan of Salvation, or rather, the Plan of Happiness.
Grad school is HARD... and it can really suck. I think everyone was feeling discouraged when they walked out of that room tonight... But at least I know that there's more to my existence than surviving grad school. There's more to my being and my intelligence than being a good scientist. Science is certainly part of
my plan, and Heavenly Father will make it work out... but it's only a small part of the plan! And isn't it great to know that there's an individualized plan according to our abilities for each of us???!!! Because unlike professors, Heavenly Father doesn't use grades--He judges us by our efforts. It doesn't get any fairer than that.